Crystal Clear, Razor Sharp

Nowhere to run - Poem 1

Thud, thud on the drizzled ground,

Cold pavement welcomes me like an old friend.

A morning wind rips oxygen from my lungs.

My heat is lost to autumn air.

Keep running. Keep moving.

Why do my thoughts stray?

Why do they travel, back in time, back in space?

My limbs feel heavy as I drag on.

Why am I here?

Just keep going. Don’t ask questions.

It hurts!

I know.

Thoughts fly back to another time and feeling cold

A cold night, a hot car,

The feel of his jeans, his kiss and a smile in the dark.

I get lost…

Forget it! Keep running. Keep moving.

I know I am getting close. I know where he lives.

Every footstep and I’m closer. I gasp.

Thud, thud. Thud, thud.

Don’t look. Keep going.

But I just want to -

No! Keep going.

I want to see –

No! Keep running.

But what if –

No! Just keep running!

I round the corner and run away.

Heavy feet, heavy Souls.